I was doing my annual splean clinging (sic), or to all the normal people out there with normal tongue; spring cleaning; yesterday to toss out some of the unnecessary things that had been piling up all these years in the storage room.
While I was filtering through every single things, I found a couple of pictures and letters from my past relationship. It's funny to think about it now, because if I were to discover these stuff back then, when I was still in devastation, I would probably cry my eyes out. But yesterday, I felt different. I was actually laughing and thought that my past relationship was really naive and innocent, (well maybe because that pictures were taken when we were about 18 or 19 years old, of course we looked naive and innocent). But that's not the point.
The point is, I had moved on. I no longer feel all hung up on my past. I let it passed, and I've passed it. I tore up the pictures and threw away the letters, and filled up my nice lil boxes with new love letters from Mr.Snots.
I felt rejuvenated. I felt relieved. As if a big burden had been lifted off my shoulder. I always knew that I no longer feel anything for him and that whatever that I have with Mr.Snots is what I've always wanted in a relationship; The bond, the attention, the things that we share, the trust (still working on that, apparently it is really hard to establish a trust); But the reassurance that came unexpectedly in a form of crumbled papers in dirty old boxes, relieved me from my past.
You know what they say about this, yesterday had passed and today is what matters now, it's a gift that need to be cherished, that is why they call it present (or some shit like that).
4 comments:
Ms. Snots,
It is good that you can laugh at your silly notes and love letters and what-nots you found during the Spring Cleaning. It really means that you have finally free yourself from the ghosts of the past.
I wish I can do the same. It is just that the past debts and favours need to be settled first. I would be very annoyed or upset if someone pop-up to ask me to repay past unpaid debts, in front of my family and friends. Worst still if I am with my new love....So to my ex , pay your debt and dues, and lets move on with our lives...
sl: This kind of issue needs to be approached slowly, we can't rush the matter of heart, be it in love, or out of love. I learned it the hard way, but I learned it nonetheless. It's all about timing and taking it one step at the time. All I can say now, I'm glad it's over and when the time comes, you will be able to say that too.
The first thing to learn is ... to empty the cup.
Hello.....Long time no update....must be very bz eh?
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